I started blogging as Gaye Lauren and wrote a sex book. It was building momentum and then I stopped. I stopped because I didn't think that beginning a career as a sex blogger was what I wanted. I stopped because I began to date Mr. Show. (Mr. Show turned into Mr. Verbally Abusive who then tried to hit me one night. Yes I left him ASAP.) Mr. Show never really supported this blog or my desires to explore sex, to explore what it is that makes people tick. Also Mr. Show was awful at sex. I tried to spice things up on a couple of occasions. Even suggested we fuck around in a dressing room at Dillards, but NOTHING. The thing was Mr. Show was of the "I'll make love to you--Boys II Men" variety whereas I have always been more of the "Closer-Fuck me like an animal-NIN" variety.
I broke up with Mr. Show in February and I thought of immediately bringing this blog back to life but I didn't. I wasn't ready. I am now though. I want this to be a new start. I don't know what will come of this blog or what will come of my exploration of sex but I will continue. I did have sex with two guys after Mr. Show and it was AMAZING--and with one guy a bit dirty, since then I haven't been sexually active. Not saying that is going to change but I am open.
Have you ever dropped the ball on a project that you realized gave you life?
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